July 2018: Mental Health Month

It’s been a busy month with lots of assorted busy work, so I’ll try to break all my updates down by category:

On Social Media
I’m on a month-long sabbatical from Twitter, eager to see what I can accomplish when I’m not worrying about how to word every random 250-character thought that crosses my mind. It’s scary how brainwashed social media made me, because I still instinctively try to open and scroll through the feed without thinking. Had to install a blocker just to catch myself when I zone out.

Outside of social media, I’ve been trying to reconnect with old forums and blogs, but I shouldn’t be surprised that almost nobody frequents these anymore. It’s like seeing somebody’s life end online when I check in on an old friend and they haven’t updated their blog since 2012. And it’s difficult to piece together their life from the nonstop Twitter excerpts they keep dropping. Not unlike myself, really. Browsing through my own feed, I sound like a crazy person who goes quiet for days and then randomly shouts “HERE’S A NEW ANTMAN TRAILER!” …I’m a tool.

On Family
I’m starting to realize that parenting a toddler is a lot like being an NPC companion in a video game. The toddler is the player who sets the pace, goes off-story to explore random nooks, and picks up everything in his path. Meanwhile, all I can do is help and observe, chiming in only to offer some background exposition or address any of his renegade choices. So, yeah, every day is a little bit like Skyrim or Fallout, but without fast-travel.

Actually, Channing’s doing awesome. The little tyke is very verbal, sings “Frere Jacques” and “Humpty Dumpty” frequently”, and has a firm grasp on social hierarchies (I believing his pecking order for who to spend time with is: Mommy, Grandma, Peppa Pig, then Daddy). We harvested his pea garden early this month and got a new one going, so he’ll have something to water all summer. And he got into DAY CARE! YES! So that’ll start in August and hopefully he’ll start making some new friends and habits.

My brother and sister-in-law also came into Vancouver with their little one for a visit. Channing got to meet his little cousin, and the two immediately got to hugging and fighting. We took them out to the aquarium, the Granville market, and assorted other baby-friendly places because we’re not at the monster truck rally stage yet. Or even Disney movie stage. Thing about kids is that you pretty much have to sacrifice all cultural awareness for a few years as everything becomes about baby songs and toy stores.

On Entertainment
Outside of baby stuff, I still get to see the occasional movie and play the occasional game.

Since the Steam sale, I’ve been getting acquainted with “New Vegas” after listening to a “Watch out for Fireballs” episode about it. I much prefer it over Fallout 3, and it has warmed me back up to the Fallout series. Still not a fan of the combat, and some levels really grate on me, but since I can “enable god mode” at any time, it’s been a welcome mental scrub.

Also reading “Ready Player One”. I still prefer the movie so far, but only in the same way I prefer “Jurassic Park” over the book as well. Both films take the core idea and trim it down into a fun, functional film, but the stories in both mediums follow very different paths. If my books were ever adapted, I would definitely want Spielberg on it, because he could probably make sense of what I was trying to write better than I could.

On GameDev
My game is still slowly on its way. I’m a little worried, because I’m grinding at what amounts to be an experimental adventure game, while at the same time, I have many non-experimental games that I want to get started on. There’s a chance I may delay this game just to work on some of those shorter ones in the interim. I don’t want people to get the idea that I’m putting all my eggs into one basket with this one project. My big dream project is still to make something more on the scale of “Curse of Monkey Island”.

After quitting Twitter, I feel less inclined to force myself to complete things just to have it ready for #screenshotsaturday. This is good, because I rushed too much work just to meet that ridiculous weekly deadline, and now I have to go back and fix things. I’d rather just release material as it looks good. I can’t handle marketing and development at the same time. It really interferes with productivity. I may be quieter than normal, but I won’t rush my work anymore.

I’m also taking a break from a different short game, just because it sounds like the rest of the team is off enjoying the summer. It’s not dead; just in stasis until everyone’s ready to pick it back up.

And that’s all I have to report on for now. Bigger announcements to come later this year.

Thanks for stopping by!

July 22 2018 03:52 pm | Daily Life, Stuff I Made

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